Sunday, February 26, 2006

.....The Islander...........



It's been a while since he wrote something,
the urge to express himself was subdued by
his self-imposed hiatus from his quest inwards.
when he moved away from the loneliness,
was it his rationality that fooled him
yet again, making him skeptical to his complacent self.

The rational self was back, like the sounds of an arriving ship
in the ears of a lost islander.
It brought with it, not just the mirage of a life
that seemed to have more to offer
but also the clamorous streets, the daily menial
tasks to make a living,
the vivid glimpses of pleasure, the thoughts
like the drifting winds.
There he was, yet again on the boat, back to the glittering streets,
leaving behind the island that was nothing less than a paradise.
A paradise that evaporated with the winds that brought with them
the first sight of the sails.
Unaware, was he.Unaware of the land that he was leaving behind.
Those nights of clear skies, that cleared the clouds of doubt
from his relentless mind.
Those sands of time that he conquered.
The echoes of the island
and all the things that kept him company in the loneliness, never
reached him amid the raucous of the sea-men.
"Happy", he seemed to be..dining dancing and singing songs with the
sailors, filling the immaculate voids in his soul with the drivel of gossips.

Hope, Hope seemed to give him warmth when he doubted the
cold vanity of his actions.
But, little did he know that the storm awaited him tomorrow.
Tomorrow, he will be again ship wrecked, in the cold water.
Then comes the desire, desire to seek loneliness. He will swim,
swim till he collapsed, back to his island. His island, that gave him
solace, the only place where he can rest mind and body.
Will he make it ?
If he did, will he leave it for another ship ?
knowing that, this too will wreck, knowing that there is no ship
that can take him to the place that never existed.
The islander, they called him.

Tuesday, February 14, 2006

.....Who the F%&$ is "Valentine"....??

WARNING:
If you had a nice valentines day and are on cloud-nine
What you are about to read "might" disinterest you.. It might make you think i am a sickened soul, who's ranting for he couldn't be happy like the rest of you.. with actual lives....on this auspicious day...
but for the record..
i do have what you might call an "interesting life" and do
want to express my love..

This might be one of the millions of rants that go out
on this day, but its not coming from a heart-broken/unloving
man...
And i don't want to bore you with the stories behind celebrating
the Vday.. cause i know...most of you have the History Channel..
Before i get to the crux of my bull s^*& lemme just state some figures


"
The Greeting Card Association estimates that, world-wide, approximately one billion valentine cards are sent each year, making the day the second largest card-sending holiday of the year behind Christmas."
Let's call my alter-ego Mr.Brightside "B"

B:what's wrong with that ???
Me:well it could as well be a country's economy

B:So what ass h&*$? Are you saying i should become
this vegitable with no emotions and escapes
from this monotonous life and have a fun time with my gal/guy..!

Me:
is there an escape from the eternal recurrence of this life ?
The sad news is there is no escape... or even if there is one.. it's
definitely not in buying gifts or sending greeting cards.

B:
Alright...! i had enough of this you liberal F&^*, so your saying
i stop celebrating and start saving money so that i could donate
to some dying kid in an african country... i don't buy it..!

Me:
Well, don't buy it.. Cause that's not what i am selling
I am as selfish as you are when it comes to satysfying my needs
be what you want to be.. and have fun with your
mate..
Show off your valentine hearts.. to people who think they are
not worthy enough to have one.. gratify your ego with the
sense of superiority that you attain by blowing the horn..

Take her out for a romantic candle light dinner, just like they
show it in the movies.. say the right words.. make her feel at home
and then.. slowly take out that "bright" but not so expensive ring that
you got.. for a cheap deal @ the holiday season sale....
make her feel like she's the only angel on the planet that
you have laid your immaculate eyes....
Yes, she will be impressed.. impressed by your taste.. may be not so
much by the number of calcualtions you made before you planned
the romantic night..
That's alright she will never know..
Yes, thats my only point..
She will never know.. not until you exchange rings
and spend months F&*king like two jack-rabbits,
not untill the day you woke up and see the woman
sleeping right next to you and start wondering.. what the
hell happened.. !

All you'll be left with is the spilt milk..
it's too late isn't it..
what went wrong..
who is to blame
Is the Saint F&*)* Valentine ??
Or Is it the Capitalists.. who made this so called fest
such a big deal ?
or is it the society that urges you to act like the rest.. ?

The last and the Question that you should be asking first..
Is it Me ???

If..Not for the kids in somalia..
If..Not for the economy...
ask this Question
Atleast.. For yourself.. you selfish peace of S&(*

for, these norms that say that you have to exchange
your sensual fealings of love for someone.. on this
particular day, will might as well put your rationality
(which again is wicked ) to rest and urge you in to a
relationship...that you'll end up regretting for ever...


So B "Happy Valentines Day"








Sunday, February 12, 2006

They say i am...

You scored as Existentialism. Your life is guided by the concept of Existentialism:
You choose the meaning and purpose of your life.



�Man is condemned to be free;
because once thrown into the world, he is responsible for everything he does.�

�It is up to you to give [life] a meaning.�

--Jean-Paul Sartre



�It is man's natural sickness

to believe that he possesses the Truth.�

--Blaise Pascal



More info at Arocoun's Wikipedia User Page...

Existentialism

100%

Nihilism

70%

Justice (Fairness)

45%

Kantianism

35%

Strong Egoism

25%

Hedonism

20%

Utilitarianism

15%

Apathy

10%

Divine Command

0%

What philosophy do you follow? (v1.03)
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Sunday, February 05, 2006

Return to innocence

Like it or not....! i am here.. feeling every emotion
yet again without any presumptions like an infant.. with a
blissful ignorance seeing the world like i have once seen with these
very eyes..... but didn't have a developed cerebrum to perceive the
beauty of this entirety that which i am a integral part of.

I want to see the sunrise and wonder what it is.. that
glowing bowl of fire.. should make me thwart in pleasure
with its resonating energy.

I want to lie naked on the shore.. feeling one with the ocean's
farthest depths,

When the sand in my crotch pricks me, i want to smile like a kid
who was tickled for the first time... that immense power of experiencing
an emotion for the first time.. i want to get lost in that pleasure...

The music that reaches to my ears for the first time.. i want to
know what it aroused in me.....and explore the sensations that lay buried in my subliminal fathoms.

The thirst.. i felt for the first time i want to prolong it.. till the
pain inside me urges to Quench my thirst with water, which is
just a part of me as the wind and the waves....

Take me to that paradise.... which i was born in to.. but was
unaware.. all the while... let me burn just as a moth in this eternal fire...

Saturday, February 04, 2006

....What's Your No Again ....?



Numbers, Numbers they are every where it's true,
what ever form it may be, your SSN , your cedit account,
your age, your DOB, your telephone...
If you think about it, each of these multi-dimensional phases
that you are being projected as a different number,
what's you're answer when some one asks you...
who you are.. and what's your size ?
It's 11 digits when you're over a mobile,
It's a 12 digit code when you're shopping
It's 2 digits, when you're alive...

Imagine, what would a busy street look like, when you
think of a throng of people as just mere numbers
floating around.
Your mere identity is chronicled as a
number, but unlike your body this number will be
reassigned to a different soul.. once you are dead..
Every communication you make over the internet or a
telephone, as you know is just a sequence of 1's and 0's..
these words that i am typing, those smiley's that you send
from a chat window...
Gone are the days, when art was a replication of the inner
perfection of an artist, it's now just a mere magic with numbers,
If you could predict the patterns of these numbers.. @NYSE
you could be a billionaire over night..

what happens to a SSN once a person is dead,
do they reassign it some one else if they do, is there a pattern,
or is this just a random phenomenon ? Can you relate the
ancestors to the descendants in this dimension.

Makes me think of "Matrix", as just more than
Science-Fiction.... A day may come when we are
reduced to just numbers... Who says the evolution
is at its end..??

Chains of thoughts and questions.. sprung after reading
Nothing's post on
the end of digital age