Life is moving in to that phase, where you are not a
part of anyones life, but yours.People seem so consumed
by their daily desires and responsibilities that beyond
a point everything that they are possibly concerned
about are themselves.
It clearly shows, when someone is dis-interested in
what you want to express.That is what has been happening to me.
Being an introvert for most of my life has left it's scars on me,
whenever i let myself alone, i tend go down that path.
I tend to put myself in a cocoon and shun my thoughts in to the
black holes of my conscious brain.
And @ times like these when i am trying to
get rid of these old habits, people turn their Fucken Knives
inside me and make feel even bitter.
But i won't let my thoughts consume me.
It does'nt mena that i want to stop my thoughts
"i would dare not".
Because to me this "Thought" is what defines me in this time capsule
of my life which itself is a infinitesimal glitch in the entirety of the Universe.
So, when someone says to that i am trying to prove myself
superior to him/her .I feel like snapping out of this monotonous circle of life
with such a terminal velocity that i escape the concept of time and hence the
human conceptions of life and death.
"What Matters ??"
Is the Question we all when we pause to take the next gasp of air
before we drown again in to this sea of illusions.
The Quintessential thing for me is to know the secret of life
not from an evolutionary point of view.
I feel every event that we experience is an instance of so many
random distributions that your computer is smart enough to compute
Nor your brain has yet learnt/discovered all these events.
"Feasibility ??"
"Intuition ---> Conceptualisation ??"
"Conceptualisation --> Formulation --> Theoretical Analysis --> Implementaion
---> Demonstration "
Demonstration This is what everyone Fucken want to see...!
This is what they look for subconsciously when they
earn for a magic show / suspense thriller.
"Movies" && "Me"
Why am i so intrigued by moveis ???
why do i want to become a writer/director
1. Am i selfish ??
No, not in this goal
2. Vision
I had this vision, when i was commuting in yet another day of my
lab-rat life. The concept that the thought that
generated from your brain being communicated to billlions of
brains which are eager to know what it means.
Eager to feel it as you've felt it. Eager to see the world through your eyes
This is what gives me the kicks, This is a reason Big enough to dedicate the
rest of my life.
3 comments:
Hey Peeps.
You seem so sad...this pain you are feeling upon the realization of your solitude and your solitary path is the fate of all great minds. Only through this deep internal suffering...one so deep that it drives you so far into yourself you can hardly remember the way back...in this dark night of your soul is where you will come face to face with yourself...your real self..your neglected shadow. When you start to accept this part of yourself, maybe you can begin to feel whole. Maybe this will be the beginning of your experience of the 'real' reality, which is that of unity, of oneness with everything.
The illusion is that we are seperate...we are actually all connected in a way that is eternal...this is probably one of the few things that actually IS eternal and fixed.
Thus said, however, I relate to your feelings of isolation and loneliness, and the feeling that no one understands.
" I have been misunderstood perhaps more than anyone else ever, but it has not affected me, for the simple reason that there is no desire to be understood. It is their problem if they don't understand, it is not my problem. If they misunderstand, it is their problem and their misery. I am not going to waste my sleep because millions of people are misunderstanding me. "
~Bhagwan Shree Rajneesh(Indian Spiritual leader, 1931-1990)
"Is it so bad to be misunderstood? Pythagoras was misunderstood, and Socrates, and Jesus, and Luther, and Copernicus, and Galileo, and Newton, and every pure and wise spirit that ever took flesh."
~Ralph Waldo Emerson
"Be not disturbed at being misunderstood; be disturbed rather at not being understanding"
~Chinese Proverb
Cheers
M.
M,
What you said here, is what i wanted
this assurance you gave me, those words of great minds that you Quoted,
give me such a sense of possibility that i cant put in words, and Bhagvan Rajneesh ( also called OSHO ) is one of the great minds that enlightened me . I now, realise the gift that you gave me would stay with me forever
These words are all i can ever ask from you
Thanks, would be an understatement and i consider myself lucky to have met someone as precious as you
Thanks a ton,
peeps
go Peeps go... live ur dream~
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