The bowl of desire enigmatically replenishes despite ones
conscious efforts to empty it. We either torment our senses
to master it or moan inadvertently jaded and enslaved.
How rational is it to think one is rational ?! When all we are
is just another ant-colony to an eagle flying high.
Don't judge a person by his words,
doggerel is all it can be to the
one who watches from a distance.
We wait earnestly for the curtains to go up,
and gasp in pleasure when the girl in the box disappears.
It intrigues you to the point where you would want to
ask the question, how does he do it ?
But before you ask that question, ask this to yourself.
Do you really want to know the science behind the magic trick ?
Would you rather be mesmerized by the ignorance of it all and keep
guessing in vain ?
How distant have we become due to the so called "reasoning" ?
How much would you give to loose it ?
How badly do you want to zoom out of your mundane existanse ?
Love you seek without pain is no different from a bland meal.
Nihilistic, is what you prefer to call the chain of thoughts that scare
to break your shell. You prefer to lie in the womb dreaming endlessly, don't
you ? Day after Day, it's a new dream you wake up to.
2 comments:
P...
How did i not see this post before?
First I want to say that I think "reason" is just a bunch of predictions or approximations made on the basis of frequently occurring patterns and most of us stick to our patterns and habituations and it never even occurs to us to act outside of convention. Our predictions regarding outcomes can come close to the resulting reality, but it seems that if we are always living within the lines of society and living out carbon copy dreams instead of our own original dreams (wanting the 2 kids, the house, the white picket fence etc. because that's everyone else's conception of a good/perfect life or because we think that's what we SHOULD want, for example)then we will not acheive peace or find happiness.
Logic and rationality MUST be transcended, but not completely tossed aside. If we could train our minds to operate using BOTH rationality and intuition or non-rationality, we'd be much better off.
"Would you rather be mesmerized by the ignorance of it all and keep
guessing in vain ?"
NO. Fuck the mundane and the games and ignorance and guessing and the blind rotting stagnancy I had reduced my life to. And fuck voluntarily choosing total illusions over not even fully comprehended or experienced reality. Satan and God raged inside me...and who came out of it in the end?
I DID.
Not without resolving the conflict by merging the two polarities within myself first, though. Sometimes when life becomes so utterly empty of any apparent significance, its surprising the falsities our minds allow us to cling to. I only wanted illusion when I felt that nothing was real or meaningful anyway. But the universe has a strange, yet beautiful way of giving you what you need when you can truly let go of the things you don't.
Hope this made some sense.
Dearest P...
I reread this tonight and found myself compelled to point out my favourite parts of what you wrote here...
- "How rational is it to think one is rational ?! When all we are
is just another ant-colony to an eagle flying high."...
- "How distant have we become due to the so called "reasoning" ? How much would you give to loose it ? How badly do you want to zoom out of your mundane existanse ?"...
So many important Qstions u ask...I think I can say you know for sure now my answers to all of these...and how very similar they are to the very answers you give (and gave) yourself. Only now that I've had a reprieve from the depths of the obsidian mundane can I vividly see how far I had sunken into a pattern of reasoning that would have doomed me to continued emptiness. The universe is unfolding as exactly as it should and the past couple months of my life have unfolded in quite a synchronous, karmic way, yet one that I could never have really rationally foreseen. Now that I'm here I wonder how I overlooked the logic that existed inside the irrationality; the destined peace within the chaos.
But I had to let go of all reasoning and my entire system of rationalization in order to find the door to something that transcended these things. It only further proves the value of irrationality and shows the beautiful things one can miss by choosing to cling to faulty systems of logic...and by refusing to dance when they have heard the music in front of those who haven't....
And how wonderfully said...
- "Love you seek without pain is no different from a bland meal."
Indeed!!!
And I'd like to restate 2 things I said...
1. "Fuck the mundane and the games and ignorance and guessing and the blind rotting stagnancy I had reduced my life to. And fuck voluntarily choosing total illusions over not even fully comprehended or experienced reality" Fuckin EH! lol
2. "The universe has a strange, yet beautiful way of giving you what you need when you can truly let go of the things you don't." Wow. HOW VERY TRUE. I actually almost can't believe I said that!
:) I always enjoy your posts, P... many times over...
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