More Questions and Madness...!

Why am i in Pain ???
Why did i ask this Question when i knew the answer ??
Can you Renounce your love for something ??
Or is it just the passage of time that erases it ??
What happens when a taught string snaps..
why is that instance so powerful ?
where does that force go ?
I've snapped alright, but what happened to my force ?? Can a force die out ??
what's the origin of this force, if had it in me, how am i dispelling it ?
and where am i throwing it.
Is my pain just another manifestation of my force ?

I am a fool, wasting this precious force in guilt and remorse
i ought to realize my entirety which has no boundaries, how do i remember
this, is enlightenment just the hardwiring of this consciousness ??

The mirage, that gives me pleasure is a swamp, each whim of pleasure
makes me oblivious to my fall in to this deep marsh land.
Life's incredibly stupid, just like me.